I've been in a confused mess.

I see my friends meeting up with each other or doing things that they love, and I get jealous. Those who dance, are still dancing. I gave that up. They're meeting up with each other, while I'm left out of the fun, and I'm cooped up at home or at work.

Is there something wrong with me? I keep feeling like people are moving on with their lives and doing exciting things, while I'm falling behind and abandoned. Or maybe I'm confused and unsure of myself. I'm struggling to find myself. I don't really know who I am or what I'm good at. And I don't seem to have much to be proud of.

I seem to keep wanting to impress people and I'm trying too hard to be cool, when I'm not.

I'm tired of being left behind and unnoticed. I want to stop feeling sorry about myself and for once, start feeling proud of who I am.

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On the other hand, I'm getting my Muse Box Set soon. So I should be happy, shouldn't I?