School's over. No more exams and assignments. No more school-related stresses.

There's a potential job that I've been shortlisted for. I went for one interview today, and I'll be going for the second round of interviews tomorrow.

I'm scared.
Excited, but scared.

The job seems really promising, but it's considered part of the corporate environment. And I'm scared of the corporate environment. The professional attire (which I have a ridiculous lack of), the stress, the long hours. I imagine it as something that drains he life out of you, literally. The long hours especially, with endless OT-ing. A job in the corporate environment seems to drain the life out of you, literally.

I don't want to lose myself and my identity. I don't want to be forced to grow up and lose the fluffy, air-head, child-like version of me. I don't want to lose my passion, and end up with very little time for my family, my boyfriend, my friends, my piano and dance. I don't want my job to run my life and overwhelm me until I have no time for myself anymore.

That terrifies me. I know I'm probably thinking the worst about things, but I can't help it. And I guess I can have a job that I enjoy, and still take care and be true to myself. But it's not exactly an easy thing to do. It is, however, easy to lose track. Which is basically what I'm most afraid of: Losing track and eventually forgetting to take care of myself and the people around me.

Barf! I think too much don't I?

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Wow! I realised that my last post was on Sep 15th... Yikes!