S I C K

Paper's this Thurs

I'm somewhat screwed

Must feel better tomorrow

:/

I broke down and cried buckets
I cried till I couldn't breathe
Which was weird because I didn't know I felt so bad
I can't remember the last time I cried so much and cried so hard

I wanted to wallow and drown in my own tears
And I cried till I couldn't get up

I'm just sick of hesitating and thinking too much
Why can't I just be free and do whatever I want just because I feel like it?
I hate thinking about what other people would think
Or whether it's going to perfect

I don't want to feel like I'm not worth anything
Or like there's nothing good about me

Days like that make me want to die
And days like that happen too often

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I went to Candy Empire today
It was weird
I was asked to go back to work if I wanted to

Sighing... I sigh everyday. Everyday, I get interrupted in my sleep. And that's why everyday, I'm tired. Everyday, is unproductive. Everyday, I try and try to focus, but my eyes just can't take it.

I've been extremely sensitive to sounds at night. I hear music and singing. And I can even hear the sound of mobile phone buttons being pressed. My sister could sleep through it, but I can't. How I wish I had her ability to sleep like a log.

Hence, I feel and look like shit everyday... o_O

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I looked straight at someone I know today. And he looked straight back at me too. But he didn't recognise me.

Do I look that different? *ponders*