Pic of me before e test! im panicking! as u can see! e blue drops r wat i call,'panick sweat'! HEH!

misery.... exactly... misery... -_- (this expression is exactly wat's on my face rite now)

i failed my driving test... YES!! i did!! and i waited 5 days to post it! ohh well!! i was disppointed,pissed and depressed... no words can discribe how much i wanted it! MAN!! anyways! i have never felt as scared and nervous as i did! goodness! my test was in e afternoon and i started panicking at approximately 11am in e morning.. yes 11AM!!! test time? 2.45PM!! i couldnt eat lunch coz i was soooooooooooo scared! i told my sis tt i felt like e entire world's population of butterflies were in my stomach!! AND i kindly pointed to her : tts why u dun see any of them flying arnd!! coz they're ALL in my tummy!!!

it was very crappy.. i am still feeling crappy.. it was frustrating!! i got angry!!! and i failed coz of others.. not coz i cant drive properly or handle e car properly.. in e circuit,some student was comin out of e parrellel parking lot.. i was goin str.. she didnt check safety.. instructor,sleeping.. my tester,had to horn for me.. therefore,gone case... i DO NOT believe it.. there they all r.. saying tt they always watch out for test cars.. and when u see a test car,u have to be EXTRA careful.. and e instructor himself noes all e test time and all tt.. he didnt even watch out.. JEEEZ!!! and i had to be all blur and nervous tt day..

out on e road.. an idiot driver turning rite didnt give way to me!! i was goin str btw! so i have e rite of way!! but noooooo!!! never give way!! tester said: never slow down.. huh.. must brake.. then! further down e same road,some woman crossed e road with her back facing e traffic.. AND then e tester say: why never slow down? must brake! im like DUDE!! im driving MANUAL!! not auto!!! got ENGINE BRAKE!!! i used e ENGINE BRAKE!!!!! its like he wants me to step on e bloody brake then he happy!! WAH LAO!! so there's my driving story.. kena failed mainly coz of other ppl..

im damn angry with e tester coz he asked me before e test if it was my first time taking.. and i said yeah.. so he's EXTREMELY strict!! i dun understand why! DAMN IT!! i can say tt im a good driver.. im a GOOD driver!!! im CONSIDERATE damn it!! and wat?! he thinks i have soooo much money to spend on more STUPID tests and lessons?!?!?! e ans is NO!! damn it!! NO!!!!! i DO NOT have much money to spend on all tt nonsense!! i DO NOT earn much money!!! actually,im NOT earning any money at all!!! and there u are!!! sucking money out of me!!!!!!! i feel bad enought having to have my parents pay for everything!! now more?!?!??!?! JEEEEZZZ!!! my bank account is running out of cash!! i DO NOT have a freaking job!!! i cant pay for more lessons and more tests!!!!! he's a bloody idiot!!!!!

my parents r payng for e car when me and my sis get our licence! so i wan tt to happen really soon!! so tt i can pay for e petrol and maintenence and stuff! and maybe when i actually get into NIE,i can use e allowance i get every month to help my parents pay off e car... GREAT!! now they have to pay more money coz i failed... GREAT!! i had to be soooo blur yeah?! BLEH!! why wasnt i more alert?! DAMN!! ohh well....

ohh and btw,it sucks being a girl.. many feminine problems to deal with.. i had TERRIBLE cramps to deal with today... like perioding itself is not enough.. took panadol lor!!! I TOOK PANADOL! i dun!!! EVER take panadol!! i HATE panadol!! but yeah! i had e cramps today.. really bad ones.. my legs were all wobbly and strengthless.. i couldnt walk arnd properly.. getting myself to stand in e bathroom to bathe was hard!! tts how bad it was! and btw,e panadol didnt work!! ohh and did i mention tt i wasnt feeling well? dunno wat i've got! feels like a flu but then again,it doesnt.. had headache e whole of yesterday and today.. plus e cramps.. e whole pms-ing thing.. i REALLY felt like i was gonna die.. seriously!! AND i lost my appetite.. had breakfast.. a not bad one.. then it just went downhill after tt.. porridge for lunch.. tasteles.. dun event alk abt dinner.. i might as well live on rice,veggie,fruits,subway...meals tasted really bad!i was soooo angry today... frustrated.. at everything!! everyone!! not having good food and all tt.. and i wanted to hit somebody.... seriously!!! i wanted to beat up some useless piece of shit!! like e one living downstairs!! tt i shall say another time!!

so i was and i still am a danger to myself!!! anyone piss me off,u DIE!!!!!!!!!

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