I've been in a confused mess.

I see my friends meeting up with each other or doing things that they love, and I get jealous. Those who dance, are still dancing. I gave that up. They're meeting up with each other, while I'm left out of the fun, and I'm cooped up at home or at work.

Is there something wrong with me? I keep feeling like people are moving on with their lives and doing exciting things, while I'm falling behind and abandoned. Or maybe I'm confused and unsure of myself. I'm struggling to find myself. I don't really know who I am or what I'm good at. And I don't seem to have much to be proud of.

I seem to keep wanting to impress people and I'm trying too hard to be cool, when I'm not.

I'm tired of being left behind and unnoticed. I want to stop feeling sorry about myself and for once, start feeling proud of who I am.

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On the other hand, I'm getting my Muse Box Set soon. So I should be happy, shouldn't I?

I owe my friends my birthday wishlist. But then again, I don't really have a wishlist this year...

So after some thought, this is what I came up with:

That's all I have for now. I realised that quite a few are for work.. :p Ohh wells...

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Speaking of work, I actually like going to work and I don't dread it at all. And I realised recently that I am having the same feeling that I had when I was in dance in JC.

Hui called it the Dance Studio Syndrome. We used to have really long and tiring rehearsals and even though rehearsal has ended, we don't want to go home or we won't mind staying late.

It's quite awesome, really. I've been staying at work till rather late nowadays and I don't mind that at all. I also don't mind the fact that I've got a lot of work to do. The only thing I mind is feeling tired, perpetually tired. And that I don't have much time to meet Garlic or my friends. Other than that, I enjoy what I do and the people I work with.

I'm very thankful for that!
Whee! =)