Never in a million years would I even dream about saying this. But ohh heck, it's already on my mind anyway.

I am NOT inspired to practice piano

I'm banishing myself for life

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I've had tough and annoying songs to play. But I've always been able to get over it and play it because I have to. And of course, because I know that it helps me improve. With the annoying songs, they are sometimes rather addictive and it gets stuck in your head. So, forcing myself to practice them becomes easier.

This time round, I'm put under exam stress and forced to sight read. Play 2 lines of music on the spot. If I'm lucky enough, I get 30 secs. I dread that. I don't see how it helps. Maybe it's to make me less hesitant and cautious. I know I'm just going to take my time to read note by note, coordinate both hands and count at the same time. So if I'm going to end up taking my time with it, how will that help me become less hesitant?

Basically, the stuff that I have to practice pisses me off. The songs, the sight reading stuff, the scales, everything. I don't know what I can practice so that I won't piss myself off...

So uninspired... So sad that I'm uninspired...

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I wonder what it feels like to be able to play piano and guitar effortlessly...

Why? Ohh why?
Am I not some music genius?
Or a rock star?

*sigh*
Me and my silly fantasies