It's such a depressing day

I feel so utterly defeated

In every aspect of my life

There isn't a thing in this world I am good at

So what if I have wonderful inspirations?

I can't seem to do shit

~Muse, Shrinking Universe~

Maybe I should just give up
.

Damn it!
What exactly do I want from you?
.

Where's the light at the end of the tunnel?

I decided to give myself a little break tonight

And I finally sat myself down

Listened to Nerina Pallot's songs with lyrics

I love the lyrics of this song!

-

Nerina Pallot - Sophia

5 o'clock and a fire escape symphony
Spilling out across the road and the square.
And the sky's the same as your own, do you think of me?
Do the parks, and trees, and the leaves reach you, there?
After the rain, in the lonely hours he haunts me, calling out.
Again, and again.

Sophia, sophia, I'm burning, I'm burning
It's a fire, a fire I cannot put out.
Sophia, sophia, I'm learning that some things I can't go without and one
of them is him

now I walk these streets like a stranger in my home town.
Learn the language, form the words when I speak
But he changed me, I'm his ghost since he came around
now I count the hours and the days and the weeks.

Passion and silence.
Every word. Every line. A Measure. It's the science of the soul.
And his books, they breathe a reason and now I want to know...

Sophia, sophia, I'm burning, I'm burning
It's a fire, a fire I cannot put out.
Sophia, sophia, I'm learning that some things I can't go without and one
of them is him

and you, with your new born eyes, have you ever loved a man like I love him?
Do you hurt but still feel alive, like never before?
Oh, sophia. Sophia.

Sophia, sophia, I'm burning, I'm burning
It's a fire, a fire I cannot put out.
Sophia, sophia, I'm learning that some things I can't go without.
I can't go without him.

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It's a song about a guy and I'm not the kind who goes ga-ga over a song about a boy. The ones I've heard are all either cheesy or boring or both or I just have not paid attention to a song with such nice lyrics. So yeap! I love it! ♥

*sigh*

What a day

Full of ups and downs

Today's mostly downs

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I hate some humans
I hate exams

I hate guilt and regret even more

*sigh*

-

I saw a mini accident today

Doesn't involve me

But it was scary enough

Two people toppled off a bike

Yikes

~*~

Ohh Nick Baker

No longer on Animal Planet

Why ohh why

My eye-candy is gone

I'm so utterly un-motivated
Wasting minutes and hours of precious time
*sigh*

Sometimes...
I don't care anymore
I start to panic

Right now, I'm starting to panic
*snaps*

Happy thoughts, happy thoughts
Think happy thoughts

*deep sigh*

~Dishwalla, Every Little Thing~

I CAN'T FOCUS
fuck!

I've had almost an entire week of sleepless nights

Another unproductive day

When will I ever learn?

I'm going to panic soon

Fuck

12:47am
.
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1:31am
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2:05am
.
.
2:37am
.
.
And I still wasn't asleep

What the fuck

I think its the coffee I had at 7pm

But its 7pm!

So why am I still awake at 2:37am?

Insomnia?

Caffeine?

My troubled mind?

Goodness knows

The most frustrating about it was, I couldn't get up to do anything else because I was tired. Its just that everytime I close my eyes, that's about all that happens. My eyes are just closed and my mind is wondering around the world. All I could do was toss and turn and shut my eyes. It's fucking annoying...

~*~

My friends are all upset

It's upsetting

Cheer up, girls!

Exams will be over soon

Damn, I can't wait

I bought many things today
3 CDs and a stamp

Nerina Pallot - Fires
Dishwalla - Pet Your Friends
All American Rejects - Move Along
3 CDs for 57 bucks
Not bad... Not bad at all :)

I bought a stamp of my name
Yeap!
It's of a smiley face and my name
So that I can stamp my name all over my lecture notes and/or on other people

I had a good Vanilla Latte today
Was tempted to get a Grande
But I settled for a Tall

Ian McKellen!
July 22nd

*I love Nerina Pallot. She's got a beautiful voice...

~*~

However...

It was a highly unproductive day
I didn't study much at all
Couldn't focus
Probably because I didn't get a good night sleep

Came across several annoying teenagers
Rude
Don't get me started

No vacancies at CD shops

*Nerina Pallot, Idaho*

I sigh

I sigh with depth

With depth, I sigh
.
.

Why?

I have yet another bug to add to my weird-bugs-spotted-in-my-house list.

A grasshopper... A giant grasshopper...

Giant and green grasshopper...

That flies and climbs up walls...

It was probably the size of my phone, length wise...

Yikes!

-

It was late at night and the only people awake were me and my sisters and we are ALL afraid of creepy crawlies. We ended up hiding in the kitchen, behind the glass door (perfect for hiding from strange things). While we were in there, I was trying to think about how we could handle the situation. One of the ideas that came up was: We could trap it under a shoe box, paste a post-it over it that said 'GIANT GRASSHOPPER' and see what happens to it the next morning.

Unfortunately, we couldn't do that because we were in the kitchen and there are no shoe boxes in the kitchen. To get to one, one of us will have to walk pass the damn thing which was now on the wall. So the box idea wouldn't work anyway.

Eventually, we decided to wake my parents and ask them for help. My dad caught it. And flung it out the window. That ended our bug horror story of the night...

Lesson learnt: DO NOT leave the windows at the living room open late at night. The window faces trees, which attracts all the funny things that I've come across in my house.

*shivers*

~*~

List of Weird-Bugs-In-My-House:
1) Praying Mentis
2) Dragonfly (twice)
3) Giant grasshopper

* I don't want the list to expand...

Empty bubble tea cup

With 5 pearls left behind

Nick Baker? ;)

Duck rice? Kang kong? Mmmm...

Where be my will to study...?

La la la....

*I am blogging for the sake of blogging

Why do I have this need to be apppreciated again?

I thought I was over that

I suddenly feel down

Maybe its the lack of sleep that is messing up my emotional system

I seem to have lost the motivation

The confidence and the hope

I had last week

I'm back at square one

~*~

And I'm a selfish bastard

~Damien Rice, Sleep Don't Weep~

It's the end of one crazy week

And the start of another

But at least its consistent

And fortunately, not to the point of insanity

~*~

Here's something completely random

Which will sooooo totally change your life
(Like OHHH My GOD!)

I'm staring at a bowl of half eaten Banana Walnut Crunch

Love it!

But it went soggy to fast

Now it just looks like baby food gone wrong

:(

~*~

Yoga is good for the soul

So is chicken rice and duck rice

*drools*

My eyes feel bashed

I've got class later

Can't watch 23 with my friends

Haven't watched Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles

Missed half of Ugly Betty yesterday

I don't know what to wear

I don't like Manfred

I like John Man

I'm a slave because I have unpaid debt

And I'm Little Miss Sunshine (NOT!)

But my friends say I should be Little Miss Tiny instead

Hmmm...

I'm just being random