I am very thankful for the Muse message board and all the comments/feedbacks that people added. It's comforting, really, to know that the experience was as tough on them as it was on me. I was surprised that people were so nice and understanding about my situation. And of course, I'm very thankful to all my friends who were there with me to share my experience and my tears. :)

I'm very very glad that there is going to be a letter to LAMC which will include all the bad expriences that some of us had. Our intention is not scold them or demand for an apology. It is just to let them know that they made a mistake in planning and did not foresee the chaos that eventually happened. I do hope that with our letter, and I'm sure there are others who also wrote something to them, future free-standing gigs organised by LAMC will be safer and way more enjoyable.

I just realised that with all my complaints, I'm not sure if mentioned this but... Muse sounded awesome live! Yes, it's so fantastic that it's probably adding to my depression.. Haha! They weren't a let down at all. According to the feedbacks from my friends and whatever the heck I could see, or rather, remember, Matt played really well and his voice was flawless. Dom played the heck out of his drums and looked like he was having tons of fun. And Chris looked good and of course, it goes without saying that the bass sounded really wicked.

So yes... The greatness of Muse adds to my depression.. Because I still can't believe and can't accept the fact that I missed their GREATNESS...


Something happened last night that I did not expect. I was out with the girls, Szu Harn, Gwen, Kaien and Candice. Such a rare chance for us all to meet up, unfortunately, Nadiah wasn't there. :( Anyway, we took many pictures, which I will post soon.

Point is... We were all in Kaien's car, driving to our supper spot and we were tuned in to the radio. Suddenly, this really familiar music comes on. Starlight. I didn't realise that it was the song until Matthew Bellamy's voice came on. And almost immediately, my heart sank and I got all emotional again. Damn. I thought I was on my way to being able to handle it. Apparently not. *sigh* The experience affected me way more than I thought.

Hui is now able to listen to their music non-stop. I can't. I can't even imagine myself listening to it. It breaks my heart... As much as I miss listening to them, I can't. I was in school the other day thinking about the setlist, trying to figure out what songs I can listen to, and what I can't. And to my surprise, I can't listen to any of them! -_-

As much as I am broken on the inside now, I believe that in time, I'll be able to get over it. And be able to fight for a kickass experience the next time they come around. I will NOT give up my front row spot. NEVER.