It goes without saying that I got damn pissed off. I tried to find other things and people to put the blame on. Why is my school system so fucked up? Why wasn't there a more direct way of informing me of the change? Why didn't anyone tell me about the change?

Then I realised, I only have myself to blame. Which doesn't make things a whole lot easier to deal with because I'm particularly hard on myself. I didn't have anyone to tell me about the change because I was and probably still am, anti-social. I only have one group of friends who happen to major in something completely different. My school system isn't fucked up, it is the most direct way for notifying changes. I was just too lazy and forgot to check. I assumed that the schedule would remain unchanged.

My school doesn't actually suck. It's the events that happen there and what it reminds me of that does. I remember being depressed in school, a lot. I hate the people in it. It reminds me of my insecurity around people and that annoying contradiction about having friends. It reminds me of all the stupid little personal issues I have to deal with. That's why I hate that place, it's just too negative for me.

And I have to go back there again later...