Its been 2 weeks since my last depressing post. And I'm still depressed/angry/sian. A few things happened over the last couple of weeks. But basically,I've been pissed. Pissed at people,pissed at things and pissed at situations.

This is really really bad. All I wanted to do in class just now was shout and scream 'Fuck! Fuck you all!' Although no one in class has offended me.. Some uncle who delivers snacks to Lecture Theaters said something that was completely unnecessary. Pissed me off like crazy.

And I realised recently why some of the people in my life are only people in my life. Why I don't like being around some people. Why I'm really disappointed in people. Why I'm so critical with some of my 'friends'. Since as long as I can remember,I've had people say or do things that completely disppoints me. And I don't understand why sometimes I even bother to be their friend and talk to them and socialise and laugh when I don't mean to. Sick isn't it?

Met up with some people recently and at the end of the day,I got really sick. Sick as in sick in the stomach because I found out things about them that i wasn't too happy about. Words can't describe how disappointed and disgusted I was. They became like some of the stupid and annoying Singaporeans you find. *sigh*

How can you say the things that you say? Do you not know that it hurts people? How can you make a decision like that without knowing how it reflects your character? And in doing so,piss the fuck out of me. How can you take something like that so lightly? Is is actually funny? Or is it ok? Because I sure as hell don't think it is. You laughed about it. You fucking laughed about it. Some friend you are. Do you even treat me as a friend? One moment you're here and the next,you're not. And I unfortunately have to hear about it from someone else. Why the fuck do I even care? I shouldn't and I don't anymore. Since I'm so insignificant and you can't even tell me personally,then fuck you. I don't need this.

I am just so sick and tired of having to put up with other people's nonsense. I'm so sick of being disappointed in people. It's been like that since secondary school. Maybe that's why I'm so fucking anti-social in school now. I just don't bother. If I don't know people,then there's a greater chance for me to be free from their nonsense. But even then,some people in my class has been able to successfully piss me off even though I don't even talk to them. Brilliant how some people can be.

So basically,that's it about people. I'm generally disappointed in the human population.

5:22 PM