they're sitting on my shoulders now. or maybe just now. don't think they're there anymore. they were doing their thing. trying to influence me. the battle between the good side and the bad side.

i am suppose to be studying for OB (Organisational Behaviour). it's theoretical. with alot of reading to do, my entire OB text which consists of 18 chapters. great. i'm so behind my study schedule now.

here's the thing. i've been trying to study the entire day. and i cant. i felt and still feel completely un-motivated. and i don't know why that's so. i was very motivated a week ago. when i was studying for accounts. now all of that motivation has gone down the drain. *sigh*

when i woke up this morning, i told myself to start studyin after breakfast, which was about 10 am. then, i started watching tv. till 11am. and at 11am, i decided to play Sims2 and study after i get back from lunch. happily went out and had good lunch. came home at about 4ish. procrastinated somemore. then decided that i would study after dinner. and of course, that never happened.

i wanted to study so bad! but i couldn't get my ass up to do it. *sigh*

Me : i need to study. i so need to study.

Angel : yes you do. you can do it. slowly slowly. you know your studies are important to you.

Devil : Silly Angel. you should know that she's not feeling too good right now. with a flu coming and cramps. she's not up for it. Cyn,go relax today. you need the rest.

Me : ohh yeah. i'm in a foul mood. im crampy and i feel like crap. but! i NEED to study.

Angel : shut your trap, Devil. did you hear that? she NEEDS to study. stop tempting her with rest. she'll get plenty later. rest is not her priority now. studying is. right Cyn?

Me : yeah..

Devil : Aiyoh! think about it, if you don't rest now, and you do fall sick, how? how are you gonna study tmr? and the day after that? and the day after that? plus, even if you do study now, nothing will go into your head right?

Me : right..

Devil : see? precisely my point..

you get the idea.. my inner struggle.. *sigh* thankfully, my elder sis came along and introduced me to an episode of Freakazoid which i have never seen.

yes Freakazoid. has anyone ever seen it? ohh its fantastic. completely nonsensical and cheesy, in a good way. i used to watch it when i was younger. like in secondary school i think. i remember waking up in the morning on sundays to catch the show.

my favourite and most memorable Freakazoid moment was when he had to do down into the sewers to catch a villain. and first thing he sad when he got down there was :
'Woah! Smells like poo-gas down here!'

haha! Sweet! so anyways, i watched this episode called 'Dance of Doom'. featured villain : Cave Guy. he's Hulk, only he's permanently big and blue, not green. ohh and he's a genius. he's intelligent and subcribes to The New York Times. so he speaks very fluent english in a very high class manner.

go watch it people, if you need some entertainment. i waould usually provide a direct link. but remember, im in a foul mood today. so im not gonna do that. :)

and by the way, i think the Devil won. im not studying.. its 10.57pm.. and i havent studied shit the whole day.. great. im so frustrated with myself......

and just something really random to end off, remember the song by Gary Jules? Mad World? i love it.. and there's a particular verse i really like.. its very sad and depressing but i like it anyway..

Children waiting for the day they feel good