tts me.. i can be stupid and vulnerable! yes i can! i've been cheated.. my feelings have been cheated..

u're not suppose to be all nice to me and all of a sudden disappear.. and SUDDENLY come back happily attached! its sick!! e more i think abt it e more sick i feel.. who am i to u then?! somebody u call when u're feeling alone?! when u're bored,u call me and talk to me and be all nice and cheery and happy?! or ask me to go out with u when u're bored and wanna go somewhere with somebody!! and when u're happily enjoying urself,u dun even give a flying rat's ass whether im alive or dead.. JEEZ!! u've been soooooo bloody nice to me.. u give me good company.. and then!!!!!! *sigh* i dun even feel like im a good fren to u.. i tot i was.. i treat u as my good fren.. and apparently,im just another one of ur frens.. i honestly tot i have found a nice decent good guy fren who is reliable and whom i can share my astronomy interest with..

its impt to me tt i have somebody i can talk to and have fun arnd.. and he doesnt even have to be my bf! i dun give a heck abt having a bf! but then i do wanna find myself a good fren! guy or girl!! and it just so happens tt u come by and fulfil almost all e criteria i feel a good fren shld have.. when i was upset,u tried making me feel better.. u're not afraid to do spontaneous crazy things.. u say e stupidest of things.. and we get along very well to me.. AND u're into stars and all e beautiful things there is in space! where in Singapore am i suppose to find somebody like tt?!

DAMN!! i really do enjoy ur company!! i dun even give a damn whether or not u like me!! which btw,i kinda like u!! but tts not e point!! u not liking me is e least of my concerns!! e suckiest and most terrible of all is tt i dun even feel like u treat me as a fren!!!! i feel like a temporary replacement of some sort!! why u gotta be like tt?!?! u big DOO DOO BIRD!!!!!!!!!!!! u do not seem to value my frenship!! u dumbo fair weather FIEND!!!

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